CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODEH

Hey wanted to post right on the first day of Chinese New Year (31st Jan) but guess what, lazy pig here put it off for so long the Chinese New Year holidays are actually almost over. Heheh XD Anyway, last Thursday was the school's CNY celebration, but ponned since bestie didn't want to go over some stupid reason :( ARGH. Was actually looking forward to it since it'll be my last CNY celebration in Secondary school but haiz. Can't help it. I do wish that she would be more outgoing and enthusiastic about this kind of stuff though, but she never seems to be, and I just can't get her to change her mind :(( I really wanted to enjoy myself.. but nevermind. Many people didn't go anyway heh. :P Mom got really mad when I said I didn't want to go, and dragged me out of bed to make me go, but when I reached the busstop outside school, it was already 9+ so I got on the bus back home. LOL. Yeah, I basically got on a bus to school and immediately after, went back home. Seriously though, it was such a waste of money and time booo :( Went home and slacked all the way (yay) and did some last minute emergency spring cleaning, and then it's CNY!! ^^

On the first day of CNY, stayed at home and aunt (dad's side) came to visit, along with my cousin and his girlfriend. She was sho pretty!! ^-^ And really nice too~ It was an awkward dinner though HAHAHA since the age gap was really.. my cousin are like all of marriageble age now, and I don't ever talk to them so sitting beside them and trying to eat properly instead of just stuffing myself silly is..agonizing. My cousin and his gf were really cute together though sooo, it's a yes from me! XD HAHAH. If I'm not wrong, she was studying nursing. [: Yay nurse. After dinner, they left shortly and that.. concludes day 1 mehh :P Nothing exciting.

On day 2, went out with parent's friends (referred to as Mai Kiao) to Ah Yat seafood restaurant for lunch! Ate dim sum..which summed up to around $200 >< Not really worth it, if you ask me. The servings were oh so small :( But the food's nice! All food tastes nice to me anyway LOL. :D<3 Went back to our home after that, bro rode with them, and dad and mom bought 4D on the way back. They arrived first of course, but bro didn't bring keys so he couldn't lead them into the house, and they had to sit downstairs to wait for us awkwardly LOL HAHAH. xD After a visit to our house, we then went back to their house (uhh, ikr) and ate steamboat there. And guess what? Mom found out that we won 4D !! Wooow. Yeah, it's the 4D we bought and made us late today. It wasn't much, but it's good enough! Dad won too, so we actually won 2 times! One of them was won by my mum, the other by my dad, so we got $420 altogether heehee.  And watched movies on their telly too! So many good shows..we stayed til 2+ omgg. And since we left halfway during a show, we simply continued to watch it after we got home so it was 3+ before I even decided to bathe :P I did bathe that morning though, (or rather, yesterday morning) so don't judge! Went to sleep at 4.40am.. *yawns*

And guess what, I woke up at 4PM the next day. YES. 4 freaking PM OMG. :OO Was gonna visit 2 more houses that day but thanks to piggy me, we didn't have time to. Sis fell sick too, kept vomiting. >< Went to Harvey Norman for an electronics shopping spree instead, and gosh, dad really knows how to shop! XD Were looking at the PCs, (wow, they have such badass touchscreen PCs nowadays) and dad went to look at the TVs. Shopped so long and got so much! We bought a new TV (one of those ginormous ones, and even got free 3D glasses to go with it:P), a printer, and 2 new PCs. One for me and one for my bro! Woow, I didn't even know dad was getting 2 *gasps*. My bro's old PC will be going to my little sis, so now we'll all have a new PC each! I don't think I'll be touching my laptop much after getting it..but you've served me well so far, laptop. :) The stuff are arriving on Thursday, and I TOTALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR IT!!! ^-^ Dad forgot to buy my bro's table fan, and my Microsoft office though, so he'll be getting them on Thursday as well :D The total was like 7k (2k+++ for the TV, 1.7k each for the PCs+ 3-in-1 printer..and a karaoke system?) though so it was like WOW for me. Dad must have a huge hole in this pocket now.. and I just want to say: thank you, daddy. :')

Was pretty late after all that shopping so we didn't get to bainian! :( Which meant I only got like 4 ang baos this year LOLL sobs. But my CNY gift precedes any ang pao I would have gotten. It's worth 1.7k for god's sake. Woot woot. But I just wanna make it clear that I DO appreciate it, ALL of it. :) Went back home and ate steamboat and watched another movie. It was really sad and good! (Bai she chuan shuo/ Bai she zhuan) My art teacher showed me parts of it during sec2 as we had to do a project on all these legends mweheheh. ^^ I cried at the ending cos it was sho sad though. ): Went to bed after that!

And today, Monday, is a school holiday since 1 CNY day fell on Saturday! It was a pretty wasted Monday though, seeing as I didn't do anything at all. And I made up my mind to study like crap after CNY too! D:< Really need to start being a furious mugger already. I actually *coughs* have not even started on my homework *another guilty cough* and it pains me so much for that means I'll not be getting any sleep tonight :(( Wow I've been writing for 1h+, and it's already past midnight! :O Gotta gooo~ :P

Page 22 of 360: Stupid PT :(

There's CCA today and it was horribleee :( Made me regret joining SJAB so much and got me hopping mad too! I was cursing away left and right and up and down LOL. The afternoon was actually OKish, it was the PT (Physical Training) part that thoroughly killed me and left me a grumpy, bitter hag. T_T I thought PT would be just doing maybe around 3 sets of pumpings, leg raises, burpies and stuff like that (the usual) BUT NO OH GOD DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH WORSE IT WAS THAN USUAL. After jumping jacks and pumpings (push ups), they made us run 1 round around the school. And then after that 1 round we did leg raises. AND then they said another round, and I was like Okayy, thinking at most they would only make us run 2 rounds max. Came back after that and did planking. Was so happy cos I thought that was the last of it but boy was I wrong LOLOL. They made us go for another round. And then another. And another around the school. Round and round and URGHHHH. !@#$%^&*() I can totally feel all this violence locked up inside me waiting to be let out xD. And I haven't been so angry in such a long time too!

Anyway, really drained after today's PT session, and I haven't started on homework/ Studying for the Chem test on Friday so yup I shall end this post here :)) Goodnight! x

Page 19 of 360: Camp Horizon Part 2

I've actually been back from camp since 17 Jan but due to laziness issues, well.. you know.. :P So this will mostly be a camp update since these two days I haven't been doing anything other than eating and sleeping ((But it's the weekend anyway)) and I doubt anyone wants to hear about my horrible sleeping schedule LOL so yeah.

On 16 Jan, we were required to report in our fine dining attire which I personally find RIDICULOUS. We were supposed to have morning flag raising in the parade square too, so it's like ????? I have to sit in the parade square in my dress and heels carrying my camp bag?? NO man. But thank god the carrying camp bag in my dress part didn't happen since the classrooms were unlocked pheww so I just dumped my bags in class before flag raising heh. (Y)

The flag raising part was awkwardd even though I sat in the back of the class so not many people could see me anyway, but I just felt so uncomfortable and open in my dress though it was actually quite..unrevealing? XD Ended up tugging at the sleeves and skirt alot meh. And made my shoes which were new fall apart since I didn't stand properly in them!>< They weren't cheap either, even though I got them from Bugis hahaha. Costs around $40, and they fell apart after only 40 min of wear LOL haiz. And then I've to ask around for superglue and ended up using soooo much of Yi Ching's double sided tape! >-< The tape didn't hold at all though, which were a waste aww :( But the first part was just basically sitting in class listening to etiquette talks thankfully so I didn't have to look like a hobo limping around everywhere in my falling-apart heels XD Then it was time to go to Singapore Poly for the fine dining part and I was so scared the school would make us walk there LOL but thank god they weren't that cheapskate; I did pay $105 for this camp afterall.. :3 There was a bit of a mini break before going to SP for us to do last minute touch-ups and stuff on our attire so I used it to rush to the book shop and got myself some superglue hahaha XD And it did the job of holding my shoes together quite well hehe. (pheww)

So we reached SP realllyy fast since NH and SP are like within walking distance anyway. And the dining place actually looked pretty damn high class! :D yayy. Had a horrible thought that they would make us eat in their canteen before LOLOL XD The food was sososososososo good too, though they took FOREVER (not even exaggerating) to serve. First there was the buns, then soup (I drank 2 of my friend's since they couldn't finish HAHA it was some kind of creamy mushroom soup I think) and then the main course which was chicken/fish/vegetarian. I was afraid the fish would be those steamed ones with bones so I got chicken but no! :( It was some awesome tasting Dory fish which I love aww :( And I'm really picky when it comes to fish too hahaha so that means it really was VERY good:P helped ate so much of my friend's food since so many of them got full easily..or maybe I'm just a hopeless food addict; most likely the latter heheh XD After eating we had some photo-taking time, and I think I took too few pics :((

Left to Right: Su Ee/Me/Xin Tong

Left to Right: Su Ee/Me/Olivia

Left to Right: Me/Yi Ching/Michelle/Me again LOL

Left to Right: Su Ee/Qi'en/Me

Top Left to Right: Su Ee/Me/Reen

Bottom Left to Right: Me/Zhaoye(another BFF:P)

Left to Right: Su Ee/Me/Faun

Left to Right: YingJie/Me/Me/Yi Ching

Su Ee + Me + ZhaoYe? :P

Somewhat failed glam self-shots of me and Su Ee XD

Top: Wei Han/Me

Bottom: Su Ee/Me

Yay CCA friends!!^-^ Very thankful for their awesomeness:D<3

Top: Tania/Me

Bottom: Tania/Me/Wei Han/Me

And here is NZ team'13!^^

Left to Right: Tania/Rachel/Me/Elrina/Yue Yi

                                                  :D

Class 410!<3 

This was taken on camp Day 1; 15/01/14 

but forgot to upload :P

And here is 410 all dressed up wheeee 8)

Me/ZhaoYe

Su Ee/Me

Su Ee/Me/ZhaoYe

Me/ZhaoYe

Ok..maybe I didn't take that little photos afterall ahaha XD And this isn't all the photos I took either! I just took alot with the same people so it felt little I guess ;3 

Aaaand this concludes fine dining! Went back to NH after that and there were some more boring talks if I'm not wrong, since I don't even remember what I did after fine dining LOL :x Only remembered changing directly into our slightly luminous camp tee (how cool is that:P) after fine dining, and then ...... and bam it was dinner XD After dinner, we went back to class to write sec 4 survival tips for our sec 3 juniors and painted some wooden figurines for them..Wished the school came up with this for the previous sec 4 batch so we would have pretty cards filled with survival tips and cute figurines too!>-< And then pretty soon, it was time for our night walk from Sim Im?? back to NH :( I didn't know whether to look forward to the night walk or not since I've walked the path before during one of my CCA camps (sec 2 sjab route march) and it shouldn't be too hard for me, but on the other hand, 11km in the middle of the night isn't something you can just get used to and my stamina and physical ability ain't all that great nowadays either T^T The bus ride there was waaayy too short for my liking and the beginning was pretty tough since it was really steep and there were many, many stairs :( I remembered that part being our "courage test" during the Sjab route march since it was pitch dark at that time and we weren't allowed torchlights; we only have one another to guide each other, and we went downhill instead of up so it was really scary since we don't even know where any of the steps are until the first person calls out :B To sum it up though, night walk was pretty tiring and I didn't enjoy it since a classmate of mine sort of kept sticking to me during the walk and I feel like I left out Su Ee. :( Let's just call her JS. (Ps.JS walked into a lamppost during the night walk LOL) So in short, JS, who didn't really have a "partner" in the class has been grouping with Su Ee and me lately whether it be project work or just to chat. She isn't exactly hated in the class, just slightly outcasted I guess, but I was actually pretty okay with her and didn't mind chatting with her. That is til after the horrible night walk LOL. JS just sort of kept walking real close to me, and on those paths that only allow for two to pass, Su Ee just gets left behind, and I feel so horribly guilty even though Su Ee told me she didn't mind. The worse part though is that Su Ee started acting like she is the extra instead of JS, when she actually isn't -__- It made me felt like such a bad friend and i couldn't freely enjoy the walk :(( I really did try to nicely hint to JS that I didn't exactly like her being like this though I think she didn't get it LOL. Til I made it superrr obvious by giving her a black face when Su Ee got left behind once more and then going back for Su Ee, I think that's when she got a rough idea, and I felt so glad but guilty at the same time. I really don't like showing my black face because it looks really horrible like 'I'm turning psycho and am about to murder you' ; yeah, it's that kind of expression hehe. :P I think I shook her off pretty easily after that though so it wasn't for nothing~ XD Su Ee is a really nice person though, and she wants to let JS join us, so I guess I'll be the extra now instead since I'm such a horrible person :P I think Su Ee deserves a better friend than me too anyway heh >< the last stretch of the night walk was particularly hateful since I really felt like I was sleep walking, and they made us took a detour for seemingly no reason so we walked a big round for nothing ugh-.- After we reached school, I just bathed and THAT'S IT. SLEPT like a pig:D 90% of the cohort didn't even bother to bath I think LOL so I'm quite hygienic! xD most of them just used powder/ wiped themselves since we were all SO tired.. ><

Got like only 1h of sleep that night since I bothered to bathe.. :( and was so crappy and grumpy the next day my black face just unintentionally came out HAHA oops :x Had nasi lemak for breafast and then we were allowed some sleeping time again THANKFULLY. I really felt like crap XD after that, there was some debrief time and then we had to go to ISH to watch a video of ourselves during camp! ^-^ Luckily my face wasn't featured LOL. Then we sang and danced "Through the years" and I felt quite high and alive XD Some random 402 guys came and kajiao me and Qi'En during the dance though and we ended up feeling sort of traumatised by it HAHAHA :/ And after the dance..DISMISSAL WHOOHOO (Y)

Went to lunch with ZhaoYe and Su Ee after we got out of school (bought Shilin) and then had some girl talk at some garden in the Clementi HDBs. Apparently the NCC people decided to have a meet-up there too though LOL so it was sort of awkward for us.. and then we went home after that and I slept worse than a pig :@) Slept more than 15 hours on Saturday, and just spent half my day sleeping today as well! >< Still feel so tired hehe so I'll be sleeping soon after I pack my bags! 

Woah, just realised I spent 1h+ on this uber long post.. It's nearing midnight (4more min heh) so I better just end this post now! Goodnight people! :) Xx

Page 15 of 360: Camp Horizon Part 1

Camp Horizon Day 1 today! Was planning to pon and as a result, got into a HELL load of trouble for that -_-". Some random male teacher called my house and gave me a damn long lecture LOL. And then I just told him that I overslept and didn't wanna go for the camp and he got all pissy and shit XD So then I thought that I could just peacefully go back to sleep BUT THEN YOU KNOW WHAT, the camp teacher-in-charge then called me up next and I was like 'wtf' and since I've had enough of their rantings about how I'm not fit to be part of the school and should be 'prepared to face consequences' yada yada, I just gave up and chionged to school for the dumb camp hahaha. Even hailed a taxi which was just basically a waste of $10. Fml. :( DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA JUST HOW HARD IT IS TO FLAG DOWN A TAXI IN THIS SOMEWHAT REMOTE PLACE WHERE I'M LIVING AT RIGHT NOW. so yeah.

Anyway, the camp wasn't that bad; it was in fact actually quite fun. Except this part where me, Su Ee and Reen decided to pon cause it was some class skipping activity, and we aren't very physical people XD The whole class ended up searching and waiting for us, and got yelled at by Mr. Liu pretty badly so ended up feeling superrr guilty!>< Not a very nice memory there LOL. And after that, got called out by Mrs. Sim and was counseled. XD Like WTF man. They made me seem like some kind of criminal just for wanting to skip a camp which I had to pay $105 for since I didn't have a choice??? -.- But Mrs. Sim was REALLY nice :D Warned us that she'll hand us directly to the discipline department instead of merely counseling us if we went AWOL again though bleh :p But I wasn't planning to anymore anyway, it's just tooooooo much hassle. -___- Don't know how many teachers know my name by now sigh. (and not in a good way either; totally not)

Tomorrow would be an overnight stay in school (Not really, since there's a night walk til 5am) so won't be updating tomorrow!>< I'm sure it'll be fun though, and I'll enjoy myself as best as I can!!!:D I want my last school camp in secondary school to be a happy memory afterall heheh. (: Haven't even started pacing my bags yet though, so I'll be going now!

Page 13 of 365; page 14 of 365: Chinese Os results!!

I..I actually  did it! OMG. I actually did get an A1 :') I really.. there's SO many emotions I'm feeling right now; so much I feel like it's drowning me ..I am just really very overwhelmed right now gah. And I'm also probably the only one so emotional about this whole thing.. No one cried even though they got a B3 but here I am sobbing my eyes out while clutching my A1 cert, and I feel so bad. Like I shouldn't be the one needing tissues! I should be the one offering hugs and comfort food :( I feel like such a bad, selfish friend. I don't know what to say..because now I'm in no position to say I understand how they feel.. but I want so badly to lend them a shoulder. I've always been last in class for Chinese. I understand the feeling of being..inferior. While the whole class passed, I was the only one who bagged a D7 for Chinese. I dragged the whole class down; I threw the teacher's face. She couldn't say her class got 100% passes because of a piece of crap like me. And I've been like this my whole sec school life so you can pretty much say that yes, I DO understand the feeling of being..a failure. And yes, I've jumped 7 grades since my EOY. From a D7 to A1. Which is why even though I expected nothing less than an A1 for myself, I couldn't actually, really believe it. It was..surreal. And I just broke down right there. Aish. So embarrassing. :( My hand was shaking so bad when I signed the paper, and I could no longer control my facial muscles. In short, I was spazming and probably looking nuts when I collected my grades. Good memories to keep eh? :D But, I just wanna say that I am VERY grateful for this A1. I know I didn't study hard. I've NEVER handed in/completed a piece of Chinese homework on time, (yeah, pretty sure about this) in my whole 3 years of sec school. I in fact, only sort of studied the day before and got all nervous and crazy on the actual day. BUT. I appreciate this 'A' ALOT. Although I believe I got it through 50% praying, 30% luck and only 20% hard work, I would NEVER take it for granted. I would not get complacent just because of 1 A. Because I don't want to walk down my brother's path. I don't want what could have been to crash and burn. Now that I have this chance, this confidence boost, I want to make the best out of it. (: There's an Amath test and Elect.  History test tomorrow (oops,I mean today since it's past midnight already) and I really hope to pass. :D Although I haven't started studying..? Heheheh :DD No change here from being a lazy bum so far.

And I guess dad was really happy about my results too, so I'll be getting a new desktop/laptop soon!! XD This laptop has served me well for 3 years though, and I love it to bits even if I get kinda cranky at it every now and then since it has gotten a little slow over the years. It was a wondiiiifull day all in all!^^ The only downside is that I really really don't know whether to bring up Os and comfort my friends who got a B3. Many told me they think I should just let them cry and chill alone first, give them some time, and not mention Os anymore. But then I think of them putting on a brave face in class and then going home and crying alone..and I just can't..I think everyone would appreciate a shoulder to cry on even if they hate appearing weak in front of others. I for one, hate crying in front of anyone VERY much, since once I start crying I can't stop, and then I just end up looking like a hot bubbly mess. (whut) I would prefer to be alone if it's me I guess, but I just feel like I should let them know that I'm always here and always will be..though I really don't know how to open my mouth..because they've always worked so much harder than me and always gotten much better results so I probably would be the last person they want to confide in right now. :( Well, I'll just go with the flow I guess. Really very thankful to those who saw me crying and just hugged me without opening their mouths to ask me for my results. VERY grateful. :') Because I may have very well gotten a C, and though they may have been dying to know my grades, they kept their mouths shut and prioritized being a good friend first. For that, I'm so grateful because I know that I have a bunch of great, awesome, true friends, and I'll always treasure them alott. Promise. :D For now though, I guess I should end this post and go mug for my two tests tomorrow so I wouldn't fail toooo horribly! XD byeeezxc

Page 12 of 360

Receiving Chinese O level results tomorrow..and I'm so sososoosososo nervous/scared/anxious/freaked out/being crazy right now ARGH. I probably look like a psycho, and this is just ONE subject!! Can't imagine how much worse it would be for those receiving ALL their results tomorrow.. Really pray that everyone will do well.. >___< I really don't know what I would do if I didn't get an A1..and no, I don't want an A2 even though I've always been a D7 at Chinese- because A2 just isn't good enough for me. I know. I suck at Chinese. I'm lazy. I'm lousy. I'm crap. I can't possibly dream of getting an A1 so easily when others who are so much better than me at Chinese have worked so much harder. I KNOW all that. BUT I'm still dreaming, still hoping, still expecting an A1. Because deep down inside.. I know that I still haven't given up on myself yet.. I don't want to. I want to at least give myself a fighting chance. To get better results than my brother. To prove myself in a way, I suppose. And I can't lose so soon. I really really don't know how I'll go on if I don't get an A1..I don't think I'll even want to go on. I'd rather jump.

But anyway, let's save all that for tomorrow. Please let me get an A1 god.. I really, really need an A1 so that at least I won't give up on myself just yet. Please.

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Okay, will update on my results tomorrow. And I hope it would be a happy update. :D But for now, I'll talk about my extreme shopping trip yesterday!^^ Not really anything over the top, seeing as I only wanted to get things for my fine dining day. (During camp) But blasted through $150 all the same, which is quite alot comparing to my friend who only used like $50? Wheee crazy shopper here. :P ZY actually said I look good in dresses, and I've never touched a dress since P3 hahaha omg. That is AN EXTREMELY HUGE compliment coming from her since we throw insults at each other so much and was convinced that we actually look like pigs to each other in real life. (No joke) The dress was purely white, and though I think it looks all weird on me (too girly?), I was told it looked great so I just went all "Pfft, whatever" and bought the dress LOL. Shopping for shoes though.. is reaaally a killer. Honestly. When you have elephant feet, searching for a pair of nice heels feels like hunting for an elephant outside the zoo in Singapore. We actually went to Bugis from City Plaza to get a damned pair of suitable shoes aww. But I managed to get a reasonably good looking pair of wedges, though it was like 8cm but I didn't know since I was so tired when trying it on I just about screamed in joy when i managed to shove my feet in and didn't even bother to stand up in it LOL. And seeing as I've never EVER touched heels since p1?, I might very well just fall off those wedges and die when I actually did wear and walk around in them. Ah, shouldn't jinx myself :P Alright got to get around to doing my homework right now so yeah byeeeeeeee heheh.

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10 days into January already..time flies!! D: No, really though, I feel like I still haven't really started on anything yet and already more than a week has passed >0< Hopeless case here. What's coming up next will be tests, tests, and more tests so I guess I'd really better buck up! Got a lecture from a good friend yesterday regarding my studies, and was very very touched :') to know that someone out there do care about an insignificant potato like me really makes me feel all warm and fuzzy yay:D Oh, and I'll be getting my O level Chinese results back next Monday! Better have scored an A1 or I would totally torture myself D:< *Prays hard for an A1* And after this, on Wed, will be my camp! So it'll be a really hectic week heh :P There's a fine dining segment in the camp which I find horrendous since I'm really not one for dresses but it was compulsory :(( and then an 11km night walk from vivo back to my school!:D woots, did that before during my cca camp so it shouldn't be too much of a killer heehee..but I'm afraid I'll be lonely and awkward since my bestie's gonna skip the camp!>< Shall try to look forward to it all the same though :D Going dress shopping with one of my bestest friend ZY tomorrow! ^^