Receiving Chinese O level results tomorrow..and I'm so sososoosososo nervous/scared/anxious/freaked out/being crazy right now ARGH. I probably look like a psycho, and this is just ONE subject!! Can't imagine how much worse it would be for those receiving ALL their results tomorrow.. Really pray that everyone will do well.. >___< I really don't know what I would do if I didn't get an A1..and no, I don't want an A2 even though I've always been a D7 at Chinese- because A2 just isn't good enough for me. I know. I suck at Chinese. I'm lazy. I'm lousy. I'm crap. I can't possibly dream of getting an A1 so easily when others who are so much better than me at Chinese have worked so much harder. I KNOW all that. BUT I'm still dreaming, still hoping, still expecting an A1. Because deep down inside.. I know that I still haven't given up on myself yet.. I don't want to. I want to at least give myself a fighting chance. To get better results than my brother. To prove myself in a way, I suppose. And I can't lose so soon. I really really don't know how I'll go on if I don't get an A1..I don't think I'll even want to go on. I'd rather jump.
But anyway, let's save all that for tomorrow. Please let me get an A1 god.. I really, really need an A1 so that at least I won't give up on myself just yet. Please.
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Okay, will update on my results tomorrow. And I hope it would be a happy update. :D But for now, I'll talk about my extreme shopping trip yesterday!^^ Not really anything over the top, seeing as I only wanted to get things for my fine dining day. (During camp) But blasted through $150 all the same, which is quite alot comparing to my friend who only used like $50? Wheee crazy shopper here. :P ZY actually said I look good in dresses, and I've never touched a dress since P3 hahaha omg. That is AN EXTREMELY HUGE compliment coming from her since we throw insults at each other so much and was convinced that we actually look like pigs to each other in real life. (No joke) The dress was purely white, and though I think it looks all weird on me (too girly?), I was told it looked great so I just went all "Pfft, whatever" and bought the dress LOL. Shopping for shoes though.. is reaaally a killer. Honestly. When you have elephant feet, searching for a pair of nice heels feels like hunting for an elephant outside the zoo in Singapore. We actually went to Bugis from City Plaza to get a damned pair of suitable shoes aww. But I managed to get a reasonably good looking pair of wedges, though it was like 8cm but I didn't know since I was so tired when trying it on I just about screamed in joy when i managed to shove my feet in and didn't even bother to stand up in it LOL. And seeing as I've never EVER touched heels since p1?, I might very well just fall off those wedges and die when I actually did wear and walk around in them. Ah, shouldn't jinx myself :P Alright got to get around to doing my homework right now so yeah byeeeeeeee heheh.
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